I am in jail, and going to prison. These are my journals. I had been in jail since August 25th, 2002, and I wrote this in Jail on, 12/23/2002 I am irritated right now! Our dorm is filled to capacity. There are 22 adult men from very different backgrounds in this cell block with me.Read more
Written in Jail 12/22/2002 Hello, it’s Sunday night and I just don’t know what to do. I am trapped in this cage called jail. I don’t want to sleep (Too much coffee). I tried reading my bible. (Ephiesians, just not feeling it) I don’t feel like writing more letters. (Burned out) So the last optionRead more
Written in Jail 12/25/2002 I need peace! I only want peace out of life! I’m tired. I don’t want anymore involvement with scandalous, scamming, corner-cutting lifestyles anymore. I want to live sober in mind, spirit, and body. I dream of being honest with myself, friends, and the family who continues to surround me. I wantRead more
Written 12/19/02 in jail. Drugs! I love Drugs! I imagined drugs as a best friend for a long time. I was never scared or intimidated by drugs. Drugs were a natural – energy filled – powerhouse for me. I saw drugs as an exciting, powerful, wonderful substance that could propel a simple human mind intoRead more
What makes a leader? Why be a leader? And, How to be a leader? I was visiting Colorado this past weekend. While there, I pushed myself to explore new environments to find God far away from the comfortable home I’ve made in Minnesota. When I do activities like this – activities that push me toRead more
My wife and survived our first year of marriage by making it to our first anniversary last weekend! At times, the journey wasn’t the most beautiful or graceful thing I’ve ever done. My wife and I struggled at times, we fought at times, we loved at times, and we truly enjoyed the journey at times. Read more
“Making a Murderer” has been smeared all over my Facebook and Twitter feed recently. The title of the movie, and the images I’ve seen, have inspired flashbacks of the rural Wisconsin courtroom I sat trial in for murder, the prison system that incarcerated me for much of my adult life, and the journey I tookRead more
At one point in my life, I was totally lost, hurt, and devastated. I can’t believe how far I had traveled away from my purpose in life, and how far back I had to journey to find it again. In 2002, when my friend died of an accidental heroin overdose after leaving my collegeRead more
For the last two days, I’ve been laying in bed motionless pondering the question why do we suffer? I’ve needed this four day weekend to catch my breath, before I’m ready to climb the mountain to find my purpose of life again. I remember when I first got out of prison a few years ago. Read more
I’ve been busy learning the new job this last week. I was exhausted over the weekend. In two weeks, I think it’s given me a good taste of what the sales lifestyle is. There are incredible highs when you’re finding and negotiating big and fast deals, but then there are also those moments when it feelsRead more
I haven’t been writing. Truth is, I’ve been running so fast, trying to do so many different things, and desperately trying to become a man as big as I am in dreams, in an insanely short amount of time, that I just got burned out. I felt like I was jumping off of ambitious cliffsRead more
Running is the closest physical activity I have found to God. I went out running last night at a Minnesota cabin. Along the way as I cut through a forest, and looked for monsters out of the corner of my eyes. I didn’t see any between the trees which is good. The monsters around hereRead more
I sit in the sun, waiting for my dreams to come true. The only difference between me right now, and someone who has given up hope in their life, is that I’m still trying. I’m reclining in lawn chair typing this on the shore of Lake Sylvia, MN andRead more
Check out our new website! I love our new home! We’ve moved to https://purposepages.com/ Here is the account of the most amazing prayer stories you will ever hear. It’s about how we moved into this new website home. After you hear this, you will see that God is supporting us.Read more
Last night I sat in our cabin boathouse strumming a guitar in my hands. It was getting close to midnight and there was a storm brewing across the lake. The lightning was crackling and flashing in the sky. My heart beat faster the closer the storm got and I couldRead more
I’m leave to go fishing this morning in the northern waters of Minnesota. The fishing season opens this weekend, and I’m leaving with a group of men seeking an adventure in modern America. I awoke drinking a mountain dew this morning as I prepare for the trip. Sometimes I like a different taste thanRead more
Last night I sat in this library and looked around. Books were everywhere. The height of the racks felt like skyscrapers and rows felt like I was in a city built on information, and there was so much to pick up and learn. I felt so small compared to this metropolis-sizedRead more
Last night I laid in bed and couldn’t sleep. I felt waves of depression creeping over me like a snake. I think we all have nights like this. I’m always pushing myself to make the right decisions, holding myself accountable to reach such a high standard, but sometimes reality catches up to me andRead more
I live in Minnesota and spring weather brings flashes of warm and cold weather. Perfect example: It was beautiful earlier, and now it’s snowing as I write this. The instability also inspires a lot of interesting, unusual storms of thought to develop in my mind. This morning, I looked outsideRead more
I had a close friend years ago who would always ask everyone he met, “So if you were an animal what type of animal would you be?” He loved that question because it immediately opened a portal into the soul of the individual and revealed to him how they identify themselves with the world. IRead more
I think the hardest days for those of us who are trying to pursue our Purpose are the days when you doubt yourself and what you believe in. The days when you ask yourself if the dreams you’re living for are really real, or if they’re just clouds in ourRead more
Tomorrow morning I’m leaving the city and I’m going way up north toward the Minnesota-Canadian Border. I’m going ice fishing. I’ve never done anything like it before, so I’m really excited to take the adventure. I just found out about it last night, so this is a last minute deal. When you’re a believer, adventuresRead more
On the way to my purpose… I woke up this morning with women on my mind. What I wrote last week was making me think so I’m going to finish the thought with part 2. I’m still aRead more
I am a single man, and I won’t lie, I am looking for love. I am not looking for a lingering, superficial fling that leads to nowhere, but instead, I am looking for a wife that will bring the best out of me and who I can share the best moments of my life with. Read more
I felt strange reading an article tonight. It said that the Lewis and Clark Expedition, which blazed a trail through America in 1804-1806, was “America’s most famous and important exploration.” That floored me. Because if this is true, that means we experienced our greatest exploration achievement more than two centuries ago. It means that we areRead more
Talent is awesome. Anyone who’s ever experienced it running through their blood and out of their skin knows what I’m talking about. It’s a holy event. It makes you feel at one with the universe. But what does talent mean? What is the definition of talent? The secret often forgotten in talent is thatRead more