I am awake again: It’s past 2 AM and I am enjoying this Wednesday night alone in the darkness and silence that is known as lock-down every night in jail. I am lying on my stomach in my bunk, enjoying this nightly lonliness with my four favorite possessions: My notebook. My pencil. My Eraser.Read more
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The song is playing in my head. “I’m dreaming of a white Christmas.” Well I woke up dreaming of a white Christmas, but I woke up in this reality of life in a jail cell block. We don’t have windows in here. I have no idea what it looks like outside. In fact, IRead more
I am thrilled with the way my writing has evolved since my first day incarcerated. Writing has become my personal release. It has been an awesome art form that I have used to help me escape from this horrible place.Read more
Today I am surviving my first Christmas behind bars. Tonight is Christmas Eve. My cellie, Ron Schwartz, and I were just whistling and singing Christmas carols together in our cell. The song was, “Walking in a Winter Wonderland.”Read more
I was writing a journal post, when I was called into the visiting room. Someone was here to see me. As I approached the door, I was surprised to see my girlfriend standing in the first visiting booth behind the glass wall. I haven’t seen her for at least a month, and I was beginningRead more
Written in Jail 12/25/2002 I feel very alive tonight. I am sipping on my 3rd cup of coffee, probably around the 2 AM morning hour. I am up later than everyone else, and it is so quiet and peaceful in the cell block. Out of 22 people, I think I am the only one leftRead more
Written in Jail 12/20/2002 When I was high on heroin one time, I called and left this voice mail on a friend’s answering machine. In the morning, she delivered the typed transcript to me in an envelope. I don’t know if she did it as a joke, or if she was subtly saying I neededRead more
What happened to me? I used to be so… unhappy, unorganized, unfocused, and confused inside. Somewhere along my life journey I changed. I became honest, likable, responsible, driven, motivated, and productive? Somehow, at some point, I changed from an entitled, ungrateful, manipulative human being into a man I am proud to be today. So howRead more
Only God can lead you to your Purpose in Life, and I found God in 3 major ways: 1) First, I became so unhappy and unfulfilled with my life, that I was desperate for change. My life had become a unmanageable state of misery. A good friend of mine had just died of a drugRead more
I see a major problem with our current 40-hour-a-week, chase the American Dream mentality our culture has accepted as truth. This popular version of the American Dream includes making as much money as you can, raising-a-family-you-are-debatably-close-to; and then retiring into the sunset of old-age with a mind full of dying, unfulfilled dreams. We American’s workRead more
