I haven’t been writing. Truth is, I’ve been running so fast, trying to do so many different things, and desperately trying to become a man as big as I am in dreams, in an insanely short amount of
time, that I just got burned out. I felt like I was jumping off of ambitious cliffs hoping I could fly immediately, and I did for a little while, until my flapping wings could no longer keep me up, and last month, I fell down to the ground and collapsed…
That’s where I’ve been the last two months. Lying on my back exhausted and asking God, what am I supposed to do next with my life to keep my journey alive?
I stared up. The ceiling fan went round and round, kind of like my life. I’m one year older now, I have more experience, but I question how many tangible results I have to show for it?
The fan just kept spinning around, just like each passing day of my life.
“What am I supposed to do next?” Is my current question to God. I can’t give up, but I’m worn out from trying. How do I get back up?
The ceiling fan is going round and round, just like the spiraling thoughts in my head. I am finally facing the question, is it even worth getting back up and trying to reach my dreams again?
The pessimism is getting me right now – and this losing attitude is coming from one of the most positive people in the world! I’m being real here. Everyone gets knocked down, even me sometimes.
I just graduated college last month –
I finished a book –
I just started a new job, and I’m about to leave it for a better job. I should be climbing a ladder, but to whom, to where and for what? If I am rising to a new level, why am I collapsed on the floor looking up at a ceiling fan? If I have as much energy, talent, and drive as I think I do…. Why am I stuck on the floor right now?
I dream of using my life to make the world a bigger, brighter, and better place! I want to be a leader who blazes a new trail for anyone who wants to follow because they’re sick of where their life is going!
But I’m finding it’s really had to become this person – Or at least become my vision of what I think this person should look like. I’m finding it’s extremely difficult to translate the ideas I have in my mind into reality. Especially in a short period of time.
I’ve been staring up at the fans, pondering every negative thought as I’m writing this. I’m not good enough. I’m not tough enough. I’m not smart enough. Round and round the deathly thoughts go. I have to remember how horrible this feels. I feel lost. Sure it’s fun to work like a madman for five months, but then it’s horrible to collapse because I’m so overworked and exhausted.
Ok, I’m tired of watching the fan spin around. Now it’s time to get back up, and try again to turn my ambitious dreams into reality.
And this is the quality that I think we all have, that can help people turn from good to great: Just to keep getting up, and trying at your dreams again.
One of my best friends, always reminds me,
“Slow and steady wins the race.”
The madman generally doesn’t win. It’s the human with the thought out plan; the ability to experiment with what works in their plan; and then the focus and drive to execute the things that work within their plan to gain the results they set out to get.
I can now see my path out of this burn-out funk I am in. Here are the tips I have learned to balance my personal and work life:
- I have to rest, and then get back up.
- I have to re-evaluate the plan I’d made, and discover the steps that caused me to stumble.
- Build on the parts of the plan that were effective.
- And finally, make changes to the plan, so that I can gain more of the results that I am seeking.